I went with my long time friend Erin to a baby shower for another friend from “way back when”. This is her second child. She already has a beautiful little girl. Her next one is a girl as well. It was really strange. Over the last couple of years we have all drifted apart. In those few years we all grew up. It is really strange to see everyone now. Most of us are married or have kids. Erin and I are among the last few without kids. We are however married. Marriage or parenthood has gotten almost all of us.
I believe I have a bit of Peter Pan syndrome. Oh yes I do. I don’t really want to grow up. Getting married didn’t make me grow up too much. I just had to learn to share. Kids share, so see I’m not grown up. Going to school, I didn’t feel grown up. I felt like a college kid. Starting a business didn’t feel real, so there is that.
As I looked at Ashley I saw someone whom had grown up. Maybe she wasn’t grown up she just was doing what she had wanted to do. She got married and now she was having her second child. I remember hearing her talk about all this when she was hating high school. That must be what growing up is: doing the things that you want, following your dreams. If that is it then I may be okay growing up. I should make a list of things that I want to do with my life.
I want to have a big back yard
An orchard with apple, pear, cherry trees
Blueberry bushes and raspberries and blackberries
I want a huge veggie garden
I want to learn to speak another language( redoing Spanish doesn’t count)
Learn to sew something i.e., purses, awesome jackets
Learn to knit and get better at crocheting
Visit Europe, maybe live there
Adopt another dog and cat and foster some animals
Visit Africa, Australia and South America
Road trip across the US
Write a book, make my blog better
Read all Shakespearean works
Live in a different state
Visit the east coast
Visit the Caribbean
Have a horse again
Build my own shelf
Try to make everything in our lives “green” and recycled
Become an RN
Get a degree from a four-year college such as Western
Paint a picture and have it framed
Frame some of my drawings
Delve more into photography
Camp in a different camp ground each year
Write a poem, it doesn’t have to be good
Finish my “Mandi” story
Make a good loaf of bread
Learn more HTML
Watch the last season of The X Files, even though I hate Doggett
Maybe have kids?
Go to New York and see some shows
Go to Smithsonian
Run an animal shelter, domestic and wild, wild sanctuary
May I say it again? Travel, travel travel!
There are so many more. I’ll make another list later. I wonder if I’ll have my own baby shower.
